I just don’t know what I’m doing. Are you there? Are you listening? Are you responding? Not sure.

I’m usually about 2-3 minutes in before I start the self talk.
“God can hear me, God knows my thoughts before I think them. If he knows my thoughts, why should I speak them? If I don’t speak them, or even think them, are the things I thought I would think even prayers, or simply foreshadows of something that never happens…?”

Uggh.